And it hurts so much to want something you can’t have.
'I think you better wise up boy', where does that come from if not just from being so vulnerable and comfortable with yourself that you don’t shoot ideas down before you have them. “That won’t work” is the worst thing you could ever say. “That didn’t work” is cool, but “That won’t work” is not a way to go through life. And there were plenty of things that didn’t work, but there was nothing that won’t work, you know.
On days like this, all I want to do is just to stay at home, play guitar, be on tumblr and read John Mayer quotes. All I need is to stop this world for a few seconds and when I had enough time to take a deep breath and calm down, the world can move on with being so careless when it comes to heartbreaks. Just a few seconds. Thank you.
"Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly won’t someone stop this train”
- John Mayer, Stop this Train
I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home.
There’s always gonna be gray area. And I ruined a lot of years of my life trying to turn gray area into either black or white. You can’t.
I have a good heart, I think. I may have gotten lost a couple of times, but so does everybody.
I’m done. You don’t have to worry about it anymore. I’m done trying to get you. I can’t do it anymore. I’m sorry that it’s taking this long for me to figure this out, but I promise, I’m done making a fool out of myself.
And so, I’m in this period of time, where I’m not a new artist and I’m not a legend. I’m an old new artist. And that’s a funny time, but that’s the judgment time. That’s when you really find out who’s who. I’m an old new artist. I’m not a newly-minted legend, I’m not the tried and true idol. I’m an old new artist.